Back in July you may have seen my whole post about the fact that Corey will be spending a whole week away. If not, you can view it here. But the day has come, this morning at 9am - I said my final good bye for a whole 8 days. He won't return now until next Saturday evening.
I have sat here and wrote this post 100 times over. It doesn't seem to being going right. I can't get the words out, the words I want to say. The words I need to say!
I just wish I was having my good night kisses and cuddles right now :(
I really don't know how to prepare myself for this week. I don't know how to prepare myself for the heart break. This may sound over dramatic to some, I do realise that but it is such a long unbearable time. If you follow me on any social media you are probably fed up of me too, I apologise!
I was lucky that Corey wanted pictures this morning, it is a rare occurrence so I take the opportunity whilst I can even if I was still in a towel! But now I have some cutie pictures to look at for the week :)
Do you ever find that even when they go to bed that you just find yourself looking at pictures because you miss them so much? Or is that just me?
I am going to miss him so very much, as sad as it may be he is my best friend. I struggle when it is 2 days every other weekend. I thought after now 2 and a half years it would be easier. In fact, it has got harder now. I don't know why.
If Corey stays at my mums, which I admit is very rare (like twice in last 6 months I think) then I am okay, because I can call him when I want to say good night etc. He calls me too! I think that is the massive difference, I can't give him a call to hear his little voice :(
But I will try and spend the week being productive. Work on the blog, I guess a bit of house work too and have some "me" time, even if it is more than I would like. I can't dwell on something I can't change so just got to get on with it. Fake a smile and all that!
Plus when he gets back, he will be so excited to tell me all about his holiday and what he got up too so I have that to look forward too and a big fat cuddle! :)
Love, Gemma xo
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